I Hate It

When my mind

Wanders places

It does not

Belong.

And I suppose this and not

Into the void

Is better but,

I know the cold taste of

It,

The vast emptiness,

The ease of going

Through the

Motions.

I can drown in the void

But still

Tear out a breath.

Drowning in the fear

Of caring about someone

Is different,

Like suffocating, like sharp

Pains in your

Chest.

Id rather be peacefully empty,

But the life

In you is contagious.

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Your Voice

Sharp, like daggers,

Or

A keen sword, piercing,

And

I wish I disliked

You more.

Wish I believed you were boring

Or

That your

Eyes didnt

So keenly examine my

Soul.

I Am

Facing this

Fear,

And hopefully

It does not

Have claws to

Dig into me, and

Shred the stitches

I spent so

Much time

And care,

On the delicate patchwork

Woven into

My own heart.

I Am Afraid

Of you,

Quiet

Man.

You go out

Of your way

To help me,

Hold me up, make

My life easier.

But to my damaged heart

It just

Feels suspicious,

Like fangs hide behind

Your

Smile,

Waiting to rip

And tear.

I have known only wolves, and

Now I

Know

Fear.

Do You

Notice

The awkward steps

I take

Towards opening

Myself to

You?

I offer you candy

Because I

Cannot

Yet offer

You

Words.

At least,

I am

Not brave

Enough to.

And even…

If I did, if

I could give you sonnets and

Beautiful love songs.

I am so

Afraid you

Wouldnt care.

If

I talk to

You, will you

Talk to

Me?

If I

Take the risk,

Jump,

Will

You even see me?

March

Came cloaked

In rain

And fog,

Dancing with

Storms,

Clapping lightning

To life.

But still, birds sing,

Crickets chirp

And the

Earth

Lives

Again.

Dusk

Settles.

Dogs cry, restless

In the dimming

Light.

Rain is

On the air.

The Jar

Sits on a shelf

Dusty and

Long forgotten, hidden

Half in shadow, half in the

Dim red light, flickering,

From

The core of a shattered

Heart.

And I wish it

Would

Die,

but

Instead the jar opens

Just

So,

And some thin screams

Slip

Out.

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